{"id":196,"date":"2017-09-14T13:20:00","date_gmt":"2017-09-14T13:20:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rudymartinez.wtf\/stuff-and-nonsense\/2017\/09\/14\/you-think-you-get-it-wrong-sometimes-you-should-come-down-here-and-see-how-the-big-boys-do-it\/"},"modified":"2025-10-08T20:34:09","modified_gmt":"2025-10-08T20:34:09","slug":"you-think-you-get-it-wrong-sometimes-you-should-come-down-here-and-see-how-the-big-boys-do-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rudymartinez.wtf\/stuff-and-nonsense\/2017\/09\/14\/you-think-you-get-it-wrong-sometimes-you-should-come-down-here-and-see-how-the-big-boys-do-it\/","title":{"rendered":"You think you get it wrong sometimes, you should come down here and see how the big boys do it."},"content":{"rendered":"

I was laying in bed watching West Wing last night when something hit me: I am a child all over again.<\/p>\n

TGB goes to bed early and I will usually come with which means I will be awake a couple of hours before drifting<\/strike> my drugs kick in. So, I throw on my Kindle Fire and watch some Netflix. Last night I decided to hide it under a cave of covers so it wouldn’t be bright while she slept.<\/p>\n

When I was a kid and doing things like that it wasn’t a tv it was a flashlight and a little turntable. I would put on Diamond Dogs or The Beatles while staring at the back covers. Single earbud in my ear (that hasn’t changed) as I was transported to another world via music.<\/p>\n

There was something delicious in that feeling that I was doing something wrong in the middle of the night.<\/p>\n

Of course, anymore the middle of the night is for the annoyance of waking up to take a leak. I chuckled to myself as I swooned over Claudia Jean.<\/p>\n

Let’s be clear: my crush is Claudia Jean the character, not Allison Janey the actress. Although, there is evidence to suggest that I might adore Ms. Janey as well.<\/p>\n

Then I thought, I could just stay downstairs and watch this on a big tv instead of coming to bed when TGB does. <\/i>

<\/i>No. This stupid little Kindle Fire is a reminder of that time I almost lost everything, including the sweet privilege of nuzzling up next to TGB every night, because of drink.

<\/i>This Kindle is my second one because my first one ended up in the fireplace. I don’t know why except that I was black out drunk. It was a horrible night and I was a fucking horrible man.

<\/i>Writing that sentence makes me uncomfortable. Mostly because it forces me to remember what a shit I was to the people who were the best to me.<\/p>\n

That’s about the point of last night’s WW episode where I stopped paying attention and remembered yet again that pulling my head out of my own ass was the smartest thing I have ever done.<\/p>\n

She made me laugh so hard my face hurt last night. She makes me laugh every night.<\/i> I smiled and looked over at her. She was asleep.  <\/i>

<\/i>If you need help, get help. If you think you can’t do it remember: just get through today and we’ll deal with tomorrow tomorrow.<\/p>\n

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