Essays & Poems

Disclaimer: Before we go on please note, I am not talking about grief. That’s a whole different beast, one that effects those of us left behind by the dead. If you can’t separate the topic of grief from the topic of death, or if you are grieving now it might be best to stop reading.  […]

When I am 70 sign me up for the front lines. Don’t send the 19 year old getting started. No parent should have to lose their baby over the frivolities of old men. Don’t send the 34 year old raising a family. Let them savor the moments of tiny fingers and first steps, of tee […]

It was my third high school. I was sitting in Auto Shop Class. It was the only elective available for someone who transferred mid-semester. Mr Lingenfelter was talking about draining brake fluid when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I leaned back without turning around. Do you play bass? he asked. I was surprised at […]

I don’t really know what to say that hasn’t already been said. There was a night when the moon was full. Its light danced with the water just so. I often message my best friend all the way in California when the moon is like that. This time I didn’t have to because she was […]

Being back home I find my brain taking me back to little moments on our recent trip. TGB’s retirement tour 2019. The boy on a field trip with his class who held his hand out for a proper handshake, everyone walking by until I came across him and looked him in the eye, took his […]

I might finally have enough internet to get back to this regularly. I have a lot of thoughts, but today I am fixated on the one thing: sobriety. Six years now. But any alcoholic will tell you that it isn’t one lump sum, it’s a string of single days, hours, moments, even seconds that just […]